[ at the time she probably wouldn't have framed it that way, but in terms of ... wanting to imagine a forever life with this person? yeah.
but the practicalities had seemed far away — ben's issues, her issues, the fact that they could both go home at any moment, the fact that they were still plagued by all their issues at home, the fact that they should be focused on the united nations and the first order and whatever else ...
but her life in the aerie had been about focusing on her family, her life. and it had slotted into place how zerzura and the aerie and earth and even the dark timeline she'd seen in her vision were all just possibilities of lives, offshoots that might exist.
she wants this to be the timeline where she marries ben. ]
A lot of the people I would want to be there are gone now.
[ and therein lies at least some of her motivation. they only have right now. she and ben might return to their galaxy at any minute too, to an uncertain future. all she can do is live this life as best she can. she's not going to wait around to figure out what happened to the people who vanished. she has to keep going while she works towards finding them. ]
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But do you want to?
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[ at the time she probably wouldn't have framed it that way, but in terms of ... wanting to imagine a forever life with this person? yeah.
but the practicalities had seemed far away — ben's issues, her issues, the fact that they could both go home at any moment, the fact that they were still plagued by all their issues at home, the fact that they should be focused on the united nations and the first order and whatever else ...
but her life in the aerie had been about focusing on her family, her life. and it had slotted into place how zerzura and the aerie and earth and even the dark timeline she'd seen in her vision were all just possibilities of lives, offshoots that might exist.
she wants this to be the timeline where she marries ben. ]
I love him.
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[That's all he needs to know, and while he doesn't know Kylo Ren, or Ben, he trusts Rey. So—]
I'm happy for you.
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I tried but I don't think he understood what I was asking.
I don't suppose you've seen loads of people figure this out in your world.
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[Okay, okay.]
What do you mean he didn't understand?
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And I said not just for a visit. So he's moving in.
[ she rolls it over in her thoughts. ]
I just thought he'd knew what I meant because before, at Riverstone, he brought it up.
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I figured he'd put it together.
But he didn't and now I have to figure out how to ask properly.
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I'm trying to get used to it.
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A lot of the people I would want to be there are gone now.
[ and therein lies at least some of her motivation. they only have right now. she and ben might return to their galaxy at any minute too, to an uncertain future. all she can do is live this life as best she can. she's not going to wait around to figure out what happened to the people who vanished. she has to keep going while she works towards finding them. ]
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[He imagines there are people from home she'd want here, too.]
If he makes you happy, it's worth doing. Sometimes we end up with less time than we think we'll have.
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[ worrying about all those other possibilities and letting that worry stop her from living this one would be a waste of a life. ]
So I've been thinking about what it might look like, if we do it.
Do you want to be there?
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